WOW how time flies........................
I use a ton of exclamations and often punctuation most look at and wonder if I passed English and yes I did.
SO I'll warn you know I write as I think and if you don't know me you'll get to know me through my punctuation!
I haven't written you in awhile, I wish I could put the last few months in a short sentence for you. Since that doesn't seem possible at this point I'll carry on from today with some highlights of memories that may help fill in some gaps.
Today was a day I made an appointment to stretch my possibilities in fitness, not unlike most of my life , however the lapse in my life in the last year or more has thrown me into a spiral of the unknown. Reeling myself through a hurricane of happenings I keep challenging myself to new heights.
When tradgedy hits your life the spin your body takes is really often one you must let go of in a strange way so that you may fall where your meant to be . I found that fighting it took more energy physically and left my emotional and spiritual state with nothing left to feed off of. I let the hurricane toss and tumble me as if I was getting eaten by a bear. I was taught you drop and play dead to survive.
I did exactly that for a bit so that I could survive the hurricane. I planted my inner core tight and allowed my outer body to take the tumbles praying that when I landed the core would be strong enough to then support the outer bodies healing as well as the inner.
I have challenged myself to deep water swims(a lifetime of fear of deep water), I have taken a spin class that was so repetitious for two months straight that I could keep moving while allowing my mind to start working again. Like a push start up a hill. I loved the people that brought me back, I loved the routine , it gave me a consistent goal to wake up to. I did it until I knew I knew it was time to move on.
Emotionally I have gone through a workout I could of never explained was possible at the same time experiencing watching my children go through theirs. That's what a mother does , right?
Every time I push beyond what I think I can do today, I see my son fighting for his life with only the best outcome in sight.
Every time I push beyond what I think I can do today , I see my children's vulnerable childhood in my hands and know there is and was NOTHING I wouldn't do for them, and the most important lesson for me in that 29 years of raising children is, if I don't take care of me , they carry a burden of my carelessness.
Every time I push beyond what I think I can do today, I add to the legacy of possibilities in health and wellness for a lifetime not just today.
Every time I push beyond what I think I can do today, I remember my life impacts others and I want the best impact possible. Love, laugh, live, rest, eat, pray and believe that every moment up or down has a purpose in the long term not always the short term, so keep on your journey to new things, new ideas, possibilities and act on it , there is never a better time than when you think about it to actually start doing it.
Love , a Mother of 4 Warriors all with different journeys but all with one mom, THAT'S ME!
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